Today I wanted to cry, thinking of you, thinking of how you're not here with me. You're gone and all I have is memories of you, of your smile, you're laugh, your hair, your eyes, the sweet text you'd send me because those will always be in my heart. I didn't know how to handle your passing away, it didn't feel real and it still doesn't! Seeing you in the hospital, holding your hand as tightly as I could because all I wanted was for you to wake up. Missing school because I didn't wanna deal with anything. Going to the store and locking myself up in the car because I began to cry, I just couldn't handle it.
All I wanna do know is pick up my phone and call you hoping that you answer the phone. All I want is to hear your voice one more time. I want to wake up knowing that your okay. But that won't happen, ever. Not in this life time. I just wanna see you one more time and express to you how I felt.
Now I have to try my best to tell people how I feel, tell my family that I love them, just express myself the most that I can because I regret not telling you how I felt. The hurt from your death was horrible and I don't want to go through that pain again. I don't want to regret not telling someone something. I learned a lot from you.
Someones life can be taken away in a blink of an eye, all I wanna say is that I love you.